The girl who doesn't believe in "Que Sera, Sera" (Part 2)

(Cont).

She has been saying again and again countless of times in emails forwarded to me and my friends that she is going to Mecca to perform Umrah and will pray that I become cripple like her. Did I mention marah? a person becomes vicious like the above is yes, due to anger. The anger which was ignited when I told her off in August 4, 2006 that for a disabled person like her, she talks too much about people, email me pictures of people I dont know and tell me lots of stories about them, she cant stop talking bad about our friends that I love, she is a person that despite suffering an illness such as that dia memang tak sedar diri and sebok pasal clubbing and arak and duit and she talks about me.......... and I tiba-tiba just simply just want her out of my life. Wish she'd just dissapear.

I may have made a small mistake, I realised. I told her off in a public forum when I found out she was talking abt me in there as pointed out by my friend, in the heat of her being at the height of showing off her "kehebatan" dalam tu, fighting/debating with forummers about celebrities and a lot of her postings are in forms of as if dia la orang paling pandai, unconquerable, hebat, sempurna. Then when someone comes in and busted the fact that she is s cripple, maka her ego was TARNISHED somewhat and seakan-akan tewas di "medan perang cyber" dia sendiri.

For that matter, for telling her off, I am paying the price, believe it or not, until today. Being her victim in harassment. Tiap-tiap hari she will click on my blogs just to pick on EVERYTHING I say nak jadikan bahan ketawa dan bahan kutukan dia. Tinggalkan comments until maximum 200 comments! Even though I am quite sure it wont lead to murder even if she has "threatening" statements in her emails. I was adviced by police that even though she sounds threatening as what they read, she is not. She is just a bitter ill person, unmarried at 30 something, wear diapers, can't move or go out on her own when her life paused due to the illness.

I dont know why dia marah sangat. Actually, really, I MEANT WELL masa menegur dia. In my defence I can easily say that I am a person yang tak suka kacau orang. Tak kacau pun. Jauh sekali aku nak mengeji orang cacat. Bila dia tak puas hati, segala blog orang, friendster orang dia masuk mengutuk pasal aku saying that aku hina dia pasal dia cacat. Sampai ada yang menyampah kat dia dan email kat aku balik about what she wrote and not enough with that, they cut and paste what they see she wrote about me and left it in my comment box in my blog. Siap kawan2 dia sendiri email aku to console me after they see what she wrote. Dia orang faham kecacatan dia. Dan dia orang tak faham why she herself tak faham, and not enough with that, she asked them to comment bad things for me in my blog which they smartly REFUSED TO, hence sending me the email. Bukan sorang, but more than 10 people did that! Dia lupa, I have blogging for years. Aku dah lali dengan kata2 caci maki orang kat aku. Mostly from anonymous pun. People that I dont even know. People that don't matter to me. People who are even too scared to tell me their names takut aku bantai derang balik when I know who they are. If her friends do come in and leave malicius comments pun, I can always delete because I dont even know them and there's nothing, no score to settle with them pun.

And again, with a person that repeatedly sounds like the below and on a daily basis in obsessed with verbal-slashing me with all these words, If god, would not/have not granted my doa of her not being in my life anymore due to me being someone imperfect myself, insyallah hanya Doa ibu dia lah yang paling berkat to bantu dia and sembuhkan penyakit yang tak menenang kan dia dari penyakit jiwa yang dah tahap terok tu, sampai dia boleh bermegah2 dengan kata2 di bawah:

“i've not stopped prayin that one day u'll wake up HALF BODY paralyse”

”yes, i will sure PRAY HATRED at the holy land. i'm not perfect, but yes, i never pray BAD for you...” - (sorry la gua tak paham apa dia cakap kat sini)

"memang, my mulut is MASIN, u'll wake up one day with your body HALF PARALYSE"

"I'M A BETTER PERSON THAN YOU, I'M STRONG WILLED, I'M EVEN MORE GOOD LOOKING THAN YOUR STUPID FACE although i have limitations!, my personality supersedes yours! although i have limitations!, my personality supersedes yours! and no i don't pray BAD for you but biar nko rasa badan cacat sebelah satu hari nanti baru tau. jangan nak slander orang cacat, pakai pampers, jalan tempang...seret seret...esok laki nko tingglkan nko baru tau...nko nanti lagi cacat dari orang yg CACAT...the time will come...maybe not now..but later. ."

“i forgot u were not invited... that fact that i drink champagne and had a great birthday party really shows that i'm enjoyin myself”

"just so u know, its a BIRTHDAY, even some of the champagnes are on the house. who wants to be misery on their birthday? and besides, the guests are all tagged with names. guestlist are based on names, NOT headcount. we know for whom we open bottles for. u were not at my birthday and its none of your business! owh, i forgot, u were not invited...because of your viciousness, i have people askin me if i was paralyse...mulut nko tu jahat..tapi TUHAN TU KAYA....kan? he still give the nikmat in life"